Who He Is To Me

I'm one of those people who likes to watch suspenseful/action packed movies. It probably has a lot to do with my dad picking out those types of movies when I was growing up. Last night, it was funny, because there were some friends over at my house and we decided to watch a movie which happened to be full of suspense. I had already seen it once before, so I knew that I already liked it. It wasn't until we got half way into the movie that I remembered that one of my friends doesn't like those kinds of movies. So, I kept glancing over at her to see what she was thinking. One point near the end of the movie, there is a creepy part and I could tell she was getting nervous and she asked me what was going to happen and if it was scary, I just looked at her and smiled saying "oh, yeah..." I said it more than anything to freak her out. Then when the part in the movie was getting ready to happen and the scene was really quiet I laughed and said out loud "oh, the suspense!"

I can't help it. I am not a dull person. I've always been someone who thrives on a challenge or anything suspenseful. My life has been full of spiritual challenges. Sure, it doesn't always feel so great going through it, but my mind is constantly straying to the future and what I know waits on the other side. I'll put up with a beating if it means I can get closer to God and His will. It feels great reaching the top of the mountain after a long/hard journey and looking back at the valley thinking "Hey, that wasn't so bad after all. It sure sucked going through it, but it didn't destroy me."

I'm not really one of those people who sits down and writes out their ten or twenty year goals. It wouldn't do much good anyway unless God has told me what's going to happen when I am forty. The only goal I have is God. My daily life is following Him around. Wherever He is going, that is where I want to be. There are times He goes places and I tend to hesitate thinking "why is He going there?" but I end up following Him there too. Funny as it may sound, God keeps me on my toes. He's constantly amazing and suprising me. God is the biggest romantic and He has a huge sense of humor. I have been in times when I am like, "God what are you doing? What's all this about?" and I can just see Him in my spirit wink and smile. He gets me. Does that make any sense? He GETS me! He KNOWS me! There isn't anyone else who will completely understand me like He does. In fact, He gets me better than I get myself. In each of our individual relationships with God, we see Him and feel with Him differently from anyone else. No one sees God the way I see Him and I can't completely see Him the way you do. Isn't that amazing?! If you have grown up in church you would have heard "You are God's favorite" and everyone would be told that. It's true! When you are someone's favorite/best friend, they treat you in a way that they don't treat anyone else. That's how God is. We are each His favorite and He relationships with us in completely different ways and yet He is the same God all the time.