What a Week

The past few nights I have been up in the night praying for my family and there have been points when I have felt so overwhelmed and discouraged listing off the many things that are happening. My dad made a comment to me the other day when I mentioned to him that it all feels so discouraging and he said "try not to think about all of it." How can I do that? I feel like I have this heavy weight on me constantly and no matter how much I pray, I feel so discouraged and helpless. I love my family very much and it's hard to watch one thing happen after the next. I cry all the time for my older brother and sister. It breaks my heart every day. How can I not think of them? Sitting here writing this is making me cry. Sometimes it feels like everything around me is falling and I can't do anything to stop it but pray. It's so painful and it tears me apart. I find myself crawling into bed at night only to cry out to God for strength and help, because I long for someone to lean on and draw from and He is the only one there. At times I feel like I have nothing left to give. I feel spent and exausted.

My business class got our final group paper assignments this week. They're supposed to be on people who start businesses, Bloomington's small businesses, and what affects our economy is having on Bloomington businesses. Blah, boring if you ask me. I'm not a business-minded person, so this stuff is completely boring to me. Oh, well. I just have to write the introduction and conclusion to the paper and the rest of the group gets to write the rest.

I have this hat that I wear all the time now. I got it when I was in Martha's Vineyard and so it has a big MV on the front of it. It's actually a good conversation starter because people are always asking me what it stands for. I've been thinking about stuff like that a lot lately. I ask myself what are good conversation starters when I am sitting in class or at the store. I've found some pretty funny ones. Hey, whatever works.