God's Time

Last night was rough for me. One of my very dear friends is moving away. I had a hard time sleeping thinking about it. But, today I prayed and realized that I was being selfish. I had come to rely on this person and I think God knew this. For years I had prayed that God would send someone with a like-passion for the lost. Well, He did. God taught me a lot through this person about myself. It was great to sit and talk about the things of God and see how God was speaking the same thing to us both. But, I know that God is in control and that when He says it's time, then it is time. God has been teaching me a lot about timing lately. There are things that God wants me to do, but I cannot move out of His timing. All we can do is trust that God's timing is perfect.

Garments

I was praying for Tehillah tonight and the LORD gave me this vision. In front of me was one of those old-fashioned machines that weeved fabrics. It was sitting in water and in front of it sat a small wooden chair. The LORD said to go and sit down. I told Him that I would get my feet wet and He said that they needed to be washed and that was why the water was there. So, I went and sat on the chair. As soon as I sat down the machine began to weeve. I reached out and touched a thread and instantly I was reminded of a time with the LORD where it was just me and Him. I touched another thread and another time past before me. Every thread held a time with my LORD. I reached out and touched the garmet that was being made and it was soft like cotton. The garmet was full of perfectly straight stripes of all colors. The LORD said that He was making a robe of righteousness for me to wear. He said that every moment that I spend with Him is the very woven fabric. As I sat there, my feet in the water, He said that He is washing my feet and purifying me. He said that when we come and sit at this place is when He draws us to Himself. Those times of intimacy with Him purifies us and gets us ready for the garments and the robes that are being prepared for us to be clothed in. The LORD wants to clothe His children in righteousness. We must have intimacy with the LORD. There must be an individual along with the corporate seeking of His face. There is a desire for love rising up within Christian men and women's hearts and the LORD is trying to tell us that only He can satisfy. Until we learn what it means to be 'in love' with the LORD we cannot expect for Him to give us the desires of our hearts. He knows the desires of the heart. There is nothing that is hidden from Him. But, He is a jealous God who longs for us. Nothing on earth can compare to His love. Once we understand this, everything else just falls into its place in its perfect time.

I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels.
For as the earth bringeth forth her bud, and as the garden causeth the things that are sown in it to spring forth; so the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.

Isaiah 61:10-11

The Passenger or The Driver?

Have you ever had what I call "the reversal effect" happen to you in your life? First of all, what I mean is that it seems that when you go through a situation in your life, somewhere down the road you seem to get put into a similar situation but on the reverse side. Growing up, I was pretty shy. I can remember all the people who tried to reach out to me and draw me in, but I was the type that would push all attention away. Now, I feel like the one reaching out to people. God is totally awesome!! First, of all He's God, so of course He is stinking awesome, but also because He uses the situations you face in your life to make a potential difference in someone elses. All the junk I went through is now being used for God's glory. Going through those really rough times is not easy, but now when I can see how God was able to use those situations, it boggles my mind. How can that stinking aweful thing that happened, now be used to reach a soul? Wow. We are such a small part in all of this! Even our circumstance/situation is not necessarily just for us. Does that make sense? You see, down the road God takes what you are going through and impacts someone else's life. Wow. It really makes me think twice about complaining. Me feeling aweful for a day could end up being used to save someone's soul. WOAH!!! All this time I have been praying "God lead me to the souls" and getting discouraged because I am not seeing it ... He's saying "What do you think I am doing?" "But, God how can I reach anyone for you if my life stinks right now?" "Um, your life stinks? I'm not seeing that." "But, God in order for me to be a witness I can't get sick, be poor, and get into car wrecks. They have to think my life is perfect, so they will want what I have. They don't want what I have now." "If your life was perfect, I wouldn't need you in the world. I would have brought you home years ago. I don't think it is them who don't want what you have, it's you not wanting what you have." "But, God, that isn't true. I have you." "Really? Well, in that case you should have no qualms with how your life is going. I already laid it out for you what it would be like. Didn't I say you would have to carry your cross in order to follow me?" "Well, yeah, but..." "But, what?" You see, we have to stop looking at our situation and complaining about it. There are times I look in the mirror and think "ha, your life stinks." But, I go and talk to someone who has just lost everything (literaly) and I feel ashamed. What is the worst thing that can happen to you? Ok, going to Hell came to my mind, but I don't know what you are thinking. So, I know I am going to Heaven, so really no matter what happens, I am going to be alright in the end. So, my life isn't 100% how I would like it to be, big deal!! It's at least 50% right, if not less. So, I wrote out a "plan for my life" when I was like ten, give me a break! I didn't know a quarter of the stuff about life that I know now. Another thing, who sets the rules? Who says this, this, this, and this has to happen before the age of 35? Who? My God never said that, so, I am not following some rules some person came up with to make everyone's life miserable. For all I know some "high" quwack had a life crisis at the age of 25 and decided to start a "rumor" that you are "out of mode" if your life hasn't gone as planned. LOL - I mean, come on. I get so tired of people being mopey about their life. Ok, so maybe you haven't found "the one" and you don't have a dog, kids, and a white picket fence. What do you have? Stop looking at what you DON'T have and see what you DO. Imagine losing THOSE things for a moment. Now the other stuff dims in comparison. I am not saying all of this to beat anyone down, I am trying to encourage you. God did not suddenly decide one day "hey, I am going to ruin (fill in your name)'s life today." NOOOO!!! He wants you to know that what you are facing right now is to help you and not just you, but somoene else later. Take your eyes off of "the now" and see the bigger picture. A big mistake a lot of us make is seeing the bigger picture the way WE want to see it. Stop asking yourself that dumb question of "So, where do you see yourself in ten years?" Instead ask "Where does GOD see me in ten years?" God has given me glimpses of what is going to happen in some people's lives and I can never tell them what I have seen. If I told them they would first of all probably not believe me, and second they would not have asked GOD for revelation. I don't want something I say to influence anyone's decision unless God specificaly tells me that I have to tell them. I don't want to ask myself "Ok, Nickie, where do you see yourself by the time you are thirty?" Instead I want to say "I know where God is leading me because I asked and He told me." I have had people ask me why I am not freaking out about stuff ALL the time anymore (cuz, hey, I'm still learning too). Well, because I am learning to rely on God's words and not my thoughts. When He says something, we have to trust Him. We cannot waste the rest of our lives trying to figure out if we are following "the formula." Little hint: there isn't one. All you can do is say "Here God. I tried it on my own, messed up, fell, embarrassed myself, made a complete idiot of myself, repeat made a complete idiot of myself. You said to give it to you, so here, take it." It's a load off (seriously). You will be able to look people in the eye when they ask how you are doing and you can tell them "My God is in control." I don't know about you but I am not a big "wanna drive" type of person. So, if God is offering on a silver platter to take the driver's seat, who am I to argue? Anyway, it's just something to think about. As you can see, my mind has been full of 'think' today. :-)

Silly Fact (2)

The characters Bert and Ernie on Sesame Street were named after Bert the cop and Ernie the taxi driver in Frank Capra's "Its A Wonderful Life."

The Sanctuary

We are told in the Bible that we are the temple of the Holy Ghost. To bring this concept down to a level of understanding, the LORD spoke to me about being the sanctuary. We all know what a sanctuary is. It is the inner and most important room in the church. The sanctuary is where the church comes together to worship, hear the Word, and pray. It is a gathering place of the body of Christ. When you enter into the sanctuary you know that you must treat the place with reverance. You do not come to destroy the sanctuary. This is how we should see ourselves. We have an inner sanctuary and the Father wants to come and dwell in it. But, if it is cluttered to the point that there is no room for Him to enter the door, then He cannot dwell there. Is your sanctuary a place of peace or chaos? Is it a place when the LORD longs to come and stay? Or is it cluttered with so much "stuff" that there is no room to allow the LORD to dwell?

Crows or Eagles?

Last night I was praying for Tehillah and the new year starting up. I prayed that God would show me what would happen this year. So, He showed me a vision.

I was sitting down with a large white clock in my hands. All that was on the clock were the hands of the clock. I sat staring at it and everything else was dark around me. Suddenly the LORD took His hand and covered up the face of the clock. The moment He did that, I could see around me. There was a line of people reaching for miles. One by one they were walking through a doorway. When they came out on the other side, they were birds. They were either a crow or an eagle. I watched as the crows would fly to a field to eat the grain on the ground. The eagles caught fish, but didn't eat them. They brought the fish to a large stone-slab-alter in another field.

I asked the LORD what this vision meant and He said that He is covering up the hands of time, because we are too focused on what time it is. We cannot truly see with open eyes until our focus is off of the time. Then, He said to go to 1 Cor. 8. This chapter talks about the eating of sacraficed food to other gods and idols. The LORD said that the line of people passing through the doorway were all Christians. The ones that turned into crows and ate of the field were the Christians that consumed themselves with the things of this world. The eagles were the Christians whose lives are consecrated to the LORD. They will not eat of this world if it causes someone else to stumble or fall. The placing of the fish on the alter meant that they would sacrafice their flesh in order to live by the spirit. The LORD is calling us to a place where we must make a choice to turn away from the things of this world or to consume them.

Just Vessels

I was reading the Elijah List this morning. I read an article about facing giants. A thought popped in my head about Moses. Moses didn't get to enter into the promised land and the Israelites had a new leader. If you think about it, the Israelites had become reliant on Moses all of those years. If the food wasn't coming, who was the first person they came to? Moses. If there was a lack of water, who did they come to? Moses. They always came to Moses with their needs. They also came to Moses with their complaints. Could you imagine being Moses and having to bear that load all of those years? Instead of praying to God, the Israelites expected Moses to talk to God for them. Now in the Old Testament, that is kind of how it worked, going through a sort of priest to talk to God. Once Jesus came and that veil was ripped between God and man, we now have the ability to speak to God. But, back to Moses. So, all of these years the Israelites pretty much relied on a man to get them through the desert and into the promised land. Well, Moses wasn't allowed to go in, so they had to go alone. What happened? They felt small next to the giants. Do you think that they would have feared the giants had Moses been able to go with them? Maybe, who knows. The thing is that even though God had simply USED Moses as a vessel, their eyes had become clouded with the vessel, rather than the God who had used the vessel. So, when they came to tell the rest of the Israelites what they had seen, they were quick to point out a weakness. Their humanity. For all of those years they looked to a man. I think it was God's way of opening their eyes and saying "Hey, you are only human." David, when he faced the giant, didn't rely on his humanity, but he put his trust in his God. That is why the giant fell. When we face our giants everyday, are we coming with a "human" mindset of our own ability or are we looking from God's view? It's not the vessel that is important, it's what is in the vessel. If the vessel boasts of itself, it will empty out what it once held. Confidence in oneself's own abilities crowd out God. You may pray five hours a day, read a book of the Bible a day, fast for 40 days, and worship and dance with the best of them ... but, if you put your confidence in being a Christian more than you put in the very God you are worshipping, you will become an empty vessel, because you will no longer see the need to carry God within you. Just think about it.

Silly Fact - (1) Donkeys

I have decided that Wednesdays are now officialy "Silly Fact Day." So, the silly fact for today, since it very well is, in fact, believe it or not, in all reality, is indeed a Wednesday, is this:

The placement of a donkey's eyes allows it to see all four feet at the same time.

Da, da, daaaa!!! You see, donkey's do have something special. As my mom sings (literaly) "If God can use a donkey, surely He can use me!"

Would You Die for One Soul?

Is there something that you are willing to die for? Why do you feel that way?
I was praying last night before outreach and I told God I was willing to die to see one soul saved. He asked me why. At first I thought "He knows why, so why is He asking me this." But, the question stood and I had to answer. I thought about it and remembered a vision God had shown me. I was standing in this field and everything was this eerie red color. I looked and across the field stood this tree. Beside the tree stood Satan. He was laughing and he touched the tree and it was ignited with fire but it didn't burn. I watched as the ground split and I saw people hanging on the sides of the gap. They were crying out for help. But, I couldn't reach them because the heat was too strong to take a step closer. Yet, I knew I couldn't just stand there so I walked step by slow step and I got to where I was crawling on my hands and knees to get there. I could feel myself dying. But, I kept pressing forward. I eventually could not go any farther and I laid there crying. I had to help them, but I couldn't reach them. Then, I looked into the distance and watched as a rolling cloud of light came closer and closer. When it reached the field I watched as Satan's look of triumph was replaced with pure fear. It was as though the shadow from the cloud of light wiped away all traces of the darknes and what was left was a green field. The red glow was gone. The tree was no longer on fire. The ground was closed. The people that had cried out for help before were now standing in the field clothed in white. I laid there and laughed. The joy of the LORD came over me so strong. I stared at the sky and I heard the LORD say, "I answer."
So, what was my answer to the LORD and His question of why I would be willing to die for one soul? "I answer." That's what I said. He once asked me if I would die for the faces in my visions. The people I have yet to meet, yet I know by heart. For a long time I could not answer. I am human and the thought of dying for people I have never even met frightened me. Then I went from fear of dying to fear of how I would die if it came down to it. I contemplated that one to chewing gum and finaly realized that the LORD was not talking about a physical death. He wanted me to give up my life for them but not to physicaly die for them. I answer. I answer the cry. I answer the call. But, in understanding the answer to the question He was asking me, I came to another realization of yes, I would physicaly die for someone's soul. Would you?

Prayer

Growing up, I got used to being in the car a lot. We were either moving, traveling, or my parents loved to just drive around and explore wherever we lived. So, I got to the point where I would fall asleep easily in the car. I was used to going on 20 hr. trips, so I learned to sleep the time away because I get motion sick and I can't read in the car. Last night was funny, because I had to keep one of my friends awake while she drove. It was a stretch for me because I am not used to staying awake when I am not the one driving. It was actually really funny because I was pretty much talking in my sleep. I managed to have an all out conversation with her but I don't remember a thing we talked about. I was literally sleeping with my eyes open. A couple times when she was talking I would doze off and then manage to bring myself around to make a comment and ask her another question to keep her talking. LOL - how that worked, only God knows, because I have no clue what we talked about and she seemed to think that it was an intelligent/normal conversation.
Sometimes we do that when we pray. We pray just to be praying and we really aren't even thinking about what we are praying. God doesn't want that. He wants us to put our heart and soul into how we pray. He doesn't just want a "sounds good" prayer, He wants a prayer that you mean. So, think about that the next time you are praying for you dinner. Are you praying just to be praying? Or are you praying because you truly are thankful? ;-)

Trust & Confidence

“Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the LORD our God.” -Judges 5:7

“It’s difficult, even unpleasant, to listen to two pieces of music at once. Likewise, it’s hard to listen to God’s voice at the same time you are listening to voices of confusion, discouragement, and condemnation. Deborah’s peace and confidence as a leader stemmed in part from her ability to hear God clearly.” -Women of the Bible

This week, I was tested big time on this. There were “voices of confusion, discouragement, and condemnation” coming at me from all angles. I made the mistake of listening to them when I should have shut them out and listened to God’s voice. Everything I was listening to were lies. It wasn’t until I came to the LORD and prayed that I saw the truth. Because I was listening to all of these voices full of lies, I began to question everything. Deborah’s “inner strength and calm leadership are characteristics of confidence not in herself but in her God.” God taught me a huge lesson through this. The confidence within me was beaten down. It was a horrible feeling going through it, but I have learned that it wasn’t supposed to be there and God was allowing what I was going through to root out confidence in myself. I cannot gain strength from myself, but from God alone. My confidence has taken a 180 degree turn and is now in my God. Would I have wanted to repeat what happened this week? Let’s just say that I have never felt so attacked in my life. But, I had to go through it and I praise God for this lesson. God is Holy, Just, Righteous, and True!!! In Him do I put my trust.

Your voice is faithful,
I will walk through this place,
Where I cannot see,
To rely on you,
Take away mine confidence,
So I may trust in my LORD,
In my weakness you are my strength,
In the dark you make a way,
There is none like my God,
You steady my hand,
You place my foot,
You hold up my head,
You open my eyes,
You bless me by your teaching,
Every testing is for your glory,
Master, in you I place my confidence.

The Deep

“The amount of gold dissolved in the oceans is nearly ten million tons, which is about 180 times the total amount of gold dug in mines in the entire history of humanity.”

Gen 1:9 God spoke: "Separate! Water-beneath-Heaven, gather into one place; Land, appear!" And there it was.
Gen 1:10 God named the land Earth. He named the pooled water Ocean. God saw that it was good.

For centuries man never really new the depths of the Ocean. Still to this day, a lot of it is still unknown. There was no real need to know what lay below the surface, because we had land. We could walk the land and profit from the land. We only used the Ocean for its fish. How is it that even though we know the world so well, we still do not know all that lies beneath?

Well, I am going to make a turn and take the next exit to “The Deep.” This is a place that has been overlooked because it is so well hidden. In order to get there, you have to go deeper than you have ever been before. You have to pass all attempts of others and reach beyond your own ability to get there. It will test your patience, but it is well worth the work.

On the way there you will meet several different levels:
Boundless – takes you past the boundaries of this world.
Prayer – teaches you to rely on someone other than yourself.
Faith – tests your belief in the Deep.
Sacrifice – takes you through the darkest depths.
Light – leads you to the gates of the Deep.

Each level teaches you a lesson and strengthens you for the next test. Every person who attempts to make it to the Deep experiences different tests from anyone else. That is why no man or woman can tell another exactly what to do to make it to the gates. Some people give up, while others make it.

The first step is going past your boundaries and the boundaries that have been set around you. This is the breaking point or the dive. Many people glance back and see the light and reflections from what they have left behind and they go back to the surface, unable to leave their world behind. But, there are others who do not look back, but focus ahead with one purpose in mind.

The next step is prayer. The deeper you go, the easier it is to lose your way. The darker it becomes and the more creatures of the dark you will face. Some give up at this level, some are even destroyed. But, there are those who learn to pray and they make it through. Sometimes, they may even bare scars from that level, but that only strengthens them for the next.

Then you come to the level of faith. At this level many begin to panic and cannot see, so they stay at this level. Whoever stays at this level will wander in it for the rest of their lives. You may even meet some of them before you make it to the next level. They will try to persuade you, confuse, and discourage you, because of their own lack of faith. But, you must press on.

Then comes the level of sacrifice. This level is the hardest of all. You are required to die to your flesh here. You will be broken. You will learn what it means to live in the spirit. This is the level where you begin to see, but not anything you have seen before. You will see through your spirit. Many stay at this level as well. They understood that there would be sacrifice, but they were too afraid to move past the place of sacrifice and live by the spirit. Here is where they find caves and hide. They sit alone and pray, but they never attempt to go deeper, because of fear. This place is also home to envy and pride. The enemy comes to this place to try to devour many of the people here before they can reach the next level. This is a place of battle.

The final level is light. This is a level that leads you to the gates of the Deep. Many people like David, Jeremiah, and Elijah dwelled in this level for many years. This level is not to benefit us; it is for the people following us. It is for the generations to come. It is at this place the prophets of old came to with open eyes. There was no more darkness to blind their vision. This is the greatest level.

But, many people never come to the water. They search for the treasures of the earth and they do not long for the depths. Yet, the water is richer than the land. The land thrives on the water. The land holds the waters back. Now that the land has been searched over, it is time to search the depths of God. He is calling us to the water.

As Christians, we are called to go deeper. If we continue to stand back and not dive in, we are missing out. The surface is good, but the depths are beyond description.

Deut. 29:29 The secret things belong unto the LORD our God: but those things which are revealed belong unto us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law.

The Sacrafice

Several months ago, God gave me this vision concerning reaching the lost in this world. Now, that the vision is coming to pass, I am truly excited. It is one thing to see what God is getting ready to do; it is another to actually see it happening.

I watched as people came to a stone-slab-alter to lay down their belongings. Some laid jewelry, others money, and some even framed pictures on the altar. But, none of it was consumed. It continued to sit there. Suddenly I heard the LORD say, “Will you give me your heart?” I said, “of course, you know you have it.” But, again, He asked the same question. I did not quite understand what He was asking of me. Then, I realized that He wanted me to lie upon the altar of sacrifice. So, I did. Instantly, He took my heart and consumed it with fire. Then, I was taken up to Him. He held me for a long time and then sent me to a dark room. I was sitting on the floor. A small boy entered the room, walked over to me and took my hand. He led me from the room to the outside. I looked and a scene of rolling green hills lay before me. It was breathtaking. The hills were all that I could see. The LORD spoke again and said, “All that you see is yours, take it.” The little boy handed me a key and then disappeared. I was standing alone before a door. It was a wooden door with a brass handle. There were no walls to hold it up. It just stood on its own. I walked to the door and slowly unlocked it and pushed it open. Inside was a whole other place. It was the streets of a city. It was dark and wet and dark shadows filled the alleys. I caught quick glimpses of dark forms creeping past the buildings, eyes watching me from the shadows. Then, I saw a lady running down the street towards me. She was wearing a pink robe and had long black hair. She looked frightened by something. She fell in front of me weeping and shaking. I took her hand to help her up off of the dirty-puddle covered ground. I looked up and saw a crowd of people standing around me. They all had that same frightened, lost look on their faces. I was overwhelmed by the amount of them. I backed away and ran back out of the door and locked it. I stood there staring at the brass handle. What had I just seen? My mind raced for an answer. I heard something behind me. I glanced over my shoulder and saw people standing there. I recognized the faces. They were from my church. I heard the LORD say, “Now, go.” I did and this time I didn’t go alone. We filtered through the door and began to minister to the many people inside.

What God is speaking is that He has given us the land and the key to the door into that land. But, He is not asking for one person to go alone, but for the church to go. The only thing that is required is a sacrifice.

Sacrifice… I have learned that the sacrifice is a lot harder than it seems. It is allowing God to be in control of your life; to trust Him with your future. Again, it is not easy. It is a process of learning to walk by faith and not by sight. To hear the words of the LORD and stand upon His promises no matter what you face. I can tell you that the biggest test of faith for me has been when God has told me something and yet everything going on around me points in the opposite direction. It breaks you. You can feel your flesh and your spirit being torn and rent. Literally, there are times when I am physically in pain fighting against unbelief and discouragement. I constantly hear the LORD saying, “Remember my promise.” Everything inside of me wants to try and make His promise happen, but I know that it doesn’t work that way. The LORD is teaching me to be patient and wait. It is a true test of faith. Every time I start to think I am seeing His promise fulfilled, something else happens to tear everything down that I have worked for up to that point. All that is left is His promise. That is all I have. I see an insurmountable wall that I know the LORD has said to go through. Yet, the harder I try, the harder I fall. The more times I attempt to break through are the times I am broken. I have asked the LORD numerous times, “Are you sure?” He just says the same thing, “Remember my promise.” I have asked myself if it is worth it and the answer is always yes. It isn’t a strong resounding word, but it is there never the less. I believe that the LORD is trying to get me to the place of “not questioning” His will. There are times when I feel that I can’t continue on with this, but it’s in those moments when I am broken that the LORD shows me glimpses of what is coming. That is when I can stand up again and push on. I feel like the little engine that could. I can’t give up, I can’t give up, I can’t give up…I know what waits for me on the other side. If there is even a slight chance that it is going to happen, I cannot turn away. But, I have heard the LORD and that is more than a chance. There is no turning back. Like I was saying before, your spirit and flesh are rent. My flesh throws things at me like, “what if you are too late?” or “you are being foolish.” But, my spirit says, “God has always been faithful to you. Don’t give up on Him now, of all times.” I hope that on the day the LORD hands me the key to the door, I will not just stand there. Does that make any sense? You see, when you have waited and fought for something for so long, it isn’t always easy to take it when it is finally given. It’s like looking in disbelief at what is before you. It’s hard to believe that it isn’t just another test, mirage, another way to break you. You know that one more break and you might give up. But, that inner-voice whispers, “Remember my promise.” You are given the strength to be broken again, so that you can come closer to that promise.

The Dead Things

The most horrible thing happened to me today. It creeps me out just thinking about it. Today we were putting the Sunday school rooms back together, now that the renovations are done downstairs. My new class for my junior highers is the old prayer room. I was taking down stuff and letting the prayer ladies either take it home or use it for our new prayer room. Well, I went to take down a wreath and I noticed something fuzzy like a giant dustball stuck inside the loop of the ribbon. So, I pulled it out. Let's just say I was wrong. It was a dead mouse. It had somehow crawled inside the wreath and died. It was completely disgusting. You could tell it was there for a long time because it was practicaly falling apart and you could see its skeleton. I ran screaming out of the room to tell my mom. At first she didn't believe me, but when she saw it, she was grossed out too. I had to run and wash my hands, because I had touched it. BLAHHH!!!
When I told the intercessors about it they said that they thought they could smell something dead in that room, but they couldn't figure it out. Well, I was the "lucky" one who found the little creature. Not something I want to repeat again.
But, a lot of times we go through life like that. We hold on to something that is not good and it eventually rots and stinks. It may take years to figure out what it is. It is time to do some cleaning up and find out what is in your life. If it shouldn't be there, then get it out. Don't allow it to stay. If you don't get rid of it now, it will be worse later. So, think about this story today as you search through your heart and life.

"I have made the stink of your camps to come up unto your nostrils: yet have ye not returned unto me, saith the LORD. " Amos 4:10b

"Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses." 1Ti. 6:12