A Life-Long-Blueprint

I was thinking about it, in fact, I have been thinking about it a lot lately...and I wish God could just give me a blueprint of my life!!!! Instructions and everything. Wouldn't that be nice!!!! I hate making big decisions and I hate not knowing if it is the right one or not. I seriously think I am a perfectionist and that it is just something I need to work through. But, it would be so much easier!!! Of course there is a lesson in this...I am just not quite sure I want to know the outcome of this one. I have come to realize that everytime I go through something is seems like the BIGGEST ONE, YET until the NEXT ONE. Who says things get easier?! But...if things got easier, wouldn't life be pretty boring? No challenges? Ok, so, I guess it's not as bad as it seems. It just feels like it right now.