This Direction

This past weekend I visited a pastor/friend's church. There was a man there who travels, speaking at churches and gatherings. He's a prophet and not only speaks accurate words into people's lives but moves in the gift of healing. At first, I thought about not going, but something inside of me said that I would miss something if I stayed at home. I didn't feel like dressing up, because it had been a long hard day, so I threw on a pair of old jeans and a t-shirt and wore an IU hat. As I looked in the mirror I thought as I hid beneath the hat "maybe he'll have some answers" and yet at the same time I felt like hiding and him not noticing me.
The worship service was nice. It felt great to worship God and let go of the weights I have been carrying. When Steve began to speak my first thought was "I hope he doesn't see me." The word he gave to us was very foundational and simple, but some of the things he said really struck a chord in my heart and my spirit was stirred. His message was short so that he would have ample time to pray and speak into people. He did this for a long time, going from one person to another. He'd stand and wait for a revelation and then speak. It was interesting to watch and I actually found myself learning from him. When he spoke to several people from my church I was pleasantly surprised that what he said was very accurate. I continued to bow my head when he would glance in my direction, keeping him from seeing my face. I don't know why I kept doing this. At the time I enjoyed hearing him speak into other people, but I was hesistant in him speaking into me. So, I continued to watch him make his way around the room, even prophesying over my parents, brother and sister. I knew after a while that he was going to say something to me and I would be the last person.
After he talked to my brother he looked over at me and said "this must be your sister" and Nathan said yes. Steve came over and asked my name and I answered and bowed my head. I only caught some of what he said as he spoke over me. The first thing he said was "this girl is one in a million" and then about me having a great call and needing to be careful because people will want to take advantage of that and that I had a "double portion". He said a lot of things and every one of them ministered and registered in my spirit. I just stood there beneath my bowed head under my hat and silently cried. I needed that. I needed to know that I am going in the right direction and making the right decisions. Even though everything seems so crazy, I know that when I find that peace that I can't begin to explain, God is taking care of me. In my prayers I tell God every day "You know I will go, do, or say whatever you ask of me, but I refuse to walk where you aren't at." I walk WITH Him not just FOR Him. There's such a huge difference.