Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Strength

This has been one of the hardest weeks I have been through in a long time. Part of me just wants to scream I am so angry at the Devil, because he has been attacking my family so much. The other part of me wants to cry. But, no matter what, I will worship God. He is so faithful. In the midst of all this junk happening I know He is in control and He hasn't left. When I allow myself to sit down and focus on all the circumstances I can feel my heart breaking, but I know that I can't sit and dwell on it. The joy of the LORD is most definitely where I find my strength. I know God is trying to speak to me through all of this. I would have never asked to learn anything through a lesson this heartbreaking, though, but God has never failed me. All I can do is pray and fast.
As for God, his way is perfect: the word of the LORD is tried: he is a buckler to all those that trust in him. For who is God save the LORD? or who is a rock save our God? It is God that girdeth me with strength, and maketh my way perfect. He maketh my feet like hinds' feet, and setteth me upon my high places. He teacheth my hands to war, so that a bow of steel is broken by mine arms. Thou hast also given me the shield of thy salvation: and thy right hand hath held me up, and thy gentleness hath made me great. Thou hast enlarged my steps under me, that my feet did not slip. (Psalm 18:30-36)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

He is listening and wants you to rely on him. It is good to know that it is Satan who is attacking you. I know the Devil all too well and he's a liar. It is good to know the enemy because you then realize what you are up against: A Rock and a Hard Place. The best part is that God is the Rock. I deal with this every waking hour. I teeter between good and evil but it is God who I know will deliver me and he WILL deliver you too!