Walking Through Doors

This past week, I was praying for the new year and asking God for some direction. One night He gave me a dream. In this dream I was shown a lot of things, but the one thing that has really stuck with me is the part where I saw names of people I had never seen or heard of before. Beside each name that I saw was a number. Some of the numbers were small and some were in the thousands. So, on Friday I was just praying and one of the names and numbers kept coming to me and I felt the urgency to look and see if that person's name was in the phonebook. Now there is a slim chance that person's name would be in there, but it was, along with the the number I had seen in my dream. So, I knew this was definitely not a coincidence and I started to pray some more. The LORD told me to call this person. I really didn't want to. I kept thinking that the person would think I was nuts if I just said "Hi, you don't know me, but God gave me a dream the other night with your name and number in it..." Um, a little odd? Well, anyway, it took a bit before I finally called the person. Of course, I ended up getting the answering machine. So, not only do I have no clue how this person is going to react to my message, but it would be recorded on their answering machine and of course my message consisted of a lot of "um's". Before I called, I had no idea what I was supposed to say, but God said to call and He would handle it. Well, He did. He told me what to say and I said it, then hung up the phone. I was a bit relieved to have gotten it over with but the LORD told me to call back and leave my phone number. My first thought was "this person is going to think I am nuts," but I called anyway and left my phone number for if they wanted to talk to me. Well, I went home, not really expecting a call back and you know what? I got a call back. The person called and I was too chicken to answer the phone so I sat and listened to the message they left on the answering machine. It turns out that the person is a Christian and wants to talk to me. So, I prayed again, whinned a bit to God for having to talk to the person and got rebuked for whinning. Then I prayed that if I was to talk to this person that God would give me what to say to them. So, He did. One word. Daughter. So, I am supposed to call this person and I have no clue if they even have one, but I am supposed to give them a word about a daughter??? I wanted to cry. But, the LORD gave me strength and I called the person and I had to leave another message on their answering machine and I waited to call them back or for them to call me back. I called again. They answered.

We had a really good talk and everything we said to each other was confirmation. She had been praying for God to send an "outside source" who didn't know her to encourage her, because she really needed it. She told me about her life and never mentioned anything about a daughter, but I knew I had to tell her about the word God had given me. Now, most of the time God just gives me a single word or picture and I have to step out in faith and say that word or describe that picture before He completes the rest of it. So, I had no clue what I was going to say about this "daughter". So, I said "um, I have no clue if you have a daughter or not, but God has a word for you about her..." She doesn't have a biological daughter. Instead, she is dating someone who has two daughters, one in which she has been praying hard for and asking God for wisdom. So, that was confirmation. But, anyway, I learned something this week about being obedient. If I hadn't done what God had told me to do, I would have missed the opportunity to be a source of encouragement for this woman. We all make mistakes and we aren't going to get it right all the time, but, if God gives us a word and tells us to give it, then we have to be obedient. I was so encouraged to realize the work God had done and how He chose to use me. I felt so small, but God drew me closer to Him and I am still in awe of what He can do. The woman told me that she believes in miracles and this was a miracle, not just for her, but for me. My prayer for 2006 is to see more signs, wonders, miracles, and the glory of God.

A Psalm of David. Judge me, O LORD; for I have walked in mine integrity: I have trusted also in the LORD; therefore I shall not slide.
Examine me, O LORD, and prove me; try my reins and my heart.
For thy lovingkindness is before mine eyes: and I have walked in thy truth.

Psalm 26:1-3