This weekend God has really taught me a huge lesson. My entire life I have been living worried about what others thought of me, especially my family. My grandparents are here this weekend and for the first time I didn't feel the need to explain or justify why I am doing what I am. I was dreading the questions of "why." Yet, I am not called to justify anything about myself. Every question that they have asked me is just a repeat of the questions they have asked my whole life. Now, I just tell them "God is in control." Even if everything around me says I am acting insanely and everyone thinks I have lost it, I have relinquished control. I am so happy. This is the happiest I have ever been in my life! I have peace and joy. All I know is God spoke and I listened. Wow - talk about laying it down. All I have to go on is the LORD's words and promises. It's a daily listening for direction. I cannot make plans of my own or try to take over. Every time I try, it is a mess. I think about the visions God has given me of my life and part of me is terrified because I have no stinkin' idea how any of it is going to happen. Yet, I have a supernatural peace that I can't begin to explain.
So, what do I have to tell you today? Do you long for peace in your life? Do you long for joy? Give it up!!! Stop trying! Let go and allow God to be God.
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