Trust

I believe that sometimes God does certain things in our lives in order to direct us and show us His will. It is not always very enjoyable when you are going through those times. I have spent the past year of my life praying for God's direction. Before now nothing made sense. Where I thought God was leading me He wasn't leading me at all. How do I know that? Well, let me explain. There is a burden for the lost upon my heart in the East Coast. The people there really need a fresh touch from God. When I truly found this touch of God in Indiana, MY desire was to share it with the people on the East Coast. I spent hours interceding for the lost. God showed me visions of His hand moving upon the land. I thought that I was to be a part of it. I wanted to be a part of it. But, God has said no. This weekend God spoke to me and told me the East Coast is not where I am called to. My heart broke, but a weight was lifted. I have had no peace about this until now. Not everything makes sense, but I know that I have started in the right direction. My greatest fear had been not being in God's will. God has not called me to live in fear. Something I have learned is that most of the time when God says something it is going to test your trust in Him. He has said things to me this past year and my first thought has been "God, are you sure?" Of course He is sure!!! He's God. In our human minds things don't always make sense, but we are not called to trust in our own wisdom but God's secret wisdom. I know this is a lesson I have to learn. I have spent my whole life "independent" and ready to do it myself. God is teaching me to rely on Him. I love God and because I love Him, I trust Him and I will do what He asks. What people don't all know is that it is sometimes painful to be corrected by God. He had to break MY vision and dream in order to fulfill HIS plan. The whole time I thought I was doing what He wanted me to do...I feel so ashamed to know that I wasn't. I can hear Him asking "Will you listen to me now?" Dad, you know that is what I want! The thing that really gets me is how because I had thought I was being called to the East Coast, I have been pushing everything else aside. I have been pushing things aside that are really important, but I wasn't going to let anything distract me. Now, I know how wrong that was.

Trust God. He knows what the future holds. He is God. If you feel Him speaking to you, don't shut Him out. Listen to His voice. Even if what He says goes against everything you think makes sense, you have to trust Him. Believe me, I know it can be scary taking that first step into the direction you are called, but after that first step is made you will feel the prescence of God so strong on your life that the following steps will be small victories already promised. Don't be afraid to trust. Trust is putting your life into someone else's hands. Trust is believing without seeing like faith. Trust God's voice.